1-give, 2-give, 3-give...

Despite how sane you are, there exists these voices in your head. There is the voice of self, the voice of the enemy and the voice of the world. We'll call these the SEW voices. But there is also the voice of God, the voice we long to hear and the only one we should be listening to. But the SEW voices are sooooooo loud - almost deafening. But more on that later. First a quick play!

Me: God?
God: Hey there!
Me: Remember 6 years ago when I really messed up?
God: Uh, no.
Me: You know..."The Thing". Don't you remember?
God: Nope
Me: Well I do?
God: Let's see... I do recall you asking me to forgive you, so I did. Then, as promised, I promptly forgot all about it. Now it's time for you to do the same.
And...scene! *bowing*
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You know God is so amazing that He forgives us as soon as we ask and then He does something so amazing. He forgets!

I, even I, am he who blots out your transgressions, for my own sake, and remembers your sins no more Isaiah 43:25

But guess who doesn't forget? Remember the SEW voices? They don't forget and seek to remind you of your sin all the time. Here's Act II...

SEW: Psssst!
Me: What!
SEW: We know what you did!
Me: What did I do?
SEW: You remember...."the thing"! You're bad.
Me: Okay...and?
SEW: What you're going through right now, we bet it's because of "the thing" from the past.
Me: But God forgave me.
SEW: Hah! But you never forgave yourself. That's why we're still here!
Me: *sigh*

And...scene *bowing*
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Self-forgiveness is really tough. Not just tough...darn hard! We are so quick to be reminded of the mistakes we've made in the past. It's too easy to condemn ourselves for errors and not walk in the joy of God's forgiveness.

He will again have compassion on us, and will subdue our iniquities. You will cast all our sins into the depths of the sea. Micah 7:19

We don't think we deserve it. But God is so merciful and loves us so much that He says He WILL NOT remember. YOU DO DESERVE IT!

For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him; as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us. Psalm 103:11-12

Act III

SEW: Psssst!Me:
SEW: Hey?
Me:
SEW: Hello???
Me:
SEW: She's not listening to us.
Me:
SEW: Are we talking to ourselves here?!?
Me: Thanks God!
God: You're welcome, my favorite child!

And...scene! *bowing*
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There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus,who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit. Romans 8:1

I know it can be a tough nut to crack, this self-forgiveness thing. Learn to say "SEW WHAT!" God says you are worthy. Believe Him!

In love,
Mona